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Jun. 2nd, 2016 01:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elizabethThat was a year ago? I guess so.
So this year for her birthday, my mother went to visit my sister again, and I went too! It was a surprise for Mom, and I think she was pretty pleased by the effort, and I'm glad I did it, and yet the long weekend was kind of less than awesome.
We all seem to be agreed that we like spending time together individually but the behavior patterns we fall into in a group are not good ones, and maybe we should take a break from doing that. I did not really think through and prepare mentally for being in close quarters with my mother and sister for a few days, and it was exhausting and dispiriting and I am feeling a little thin-skinned and fragile at the moment.
Some of it was that the weather was bonkers and I slept poorly the first night I was there, and then it was fucking freezing the next day, and cold + tired = a very unhappy Elizabeth. But mostly it was just...emotions. History and boundaries and patterns and man, being a grownup is hard.
Also my sister's apartment is wonderfully sunny and now I am freshly bitter over how much I hate my apartment because it is a pitch-black emotional vampire. But the rent is great and I like my roommate and I like the neighborhood (mostly) and ...yeah.
So this year for her birthday, my mother went to visit my sister again, and I went too! It was a surprise for Mom, and I think she was pretty pleased by the effort, and I'm glad I did it, and yet the long weekend was kind of less than awesome.
We all seem to be agreed that we like spending time together individually but the behavior patterns we fall into in a group are not good ones, and maybe we should take a break from doing that. I did not really think through and prepare mentally for being in close quarters with my mother and sister for a few days, and it was exhausting and dispiriting and I am feeling a little thin-skinned and fragile at the moment.
Some of it was that the weather was bonkers and I slept poorly the first night I was there, and then it was fucking freezing the next day, and cold + tired = a very unhappy Elizabeth. But mostly it was just...emotions. History and boundaries and patterns and man, being a grownup is hard.
Also my sister's apartment is wonderfully sunny and now I am freshly bitter over how much I hate my apartment because it is a pitch-black emotional vampire. But the rent is great and I like my roommate and I like the neighborhood (mostly) and ...yeah.
