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oh look my face is leaking again
Aug. 8th, 2019 07:13 pmSomething childlike and lonely in my brain is hearing all these messages about being hard to love, about being put up with, about being excluded.
Oh for fuck's sake. This is what's underlying a nonzero amount of my current distress. I feel that my sister is making it pretty clear that her existing schedule is not going to bend around "Elizabeth is moving to my city and starting a new job" and I am trying to be generous and understanding but I feel as though she just doesn't like me. Work is doing a pretty shitty job of welcoming me, my best friend is out of town until the end of the month, and I am feeling super lonely and rejected and it sucks.
Oh for fuck's sake. This is what's underlying a nonzero amount of my current distress. I feel that my sister is making it pretty clear that her existing schedule is not going to bend around "Elizabeth is moving to my city and starting a new job" and I am trying to be generous and understanding but I feel as though she just doesn't like me. Work is doing a pretty shitty job of welcoming me, my best friend is out of town until the end of the month, and I am feeling super lonely and rejected and it sucks.
