Elizabeth

Goddamn it, I just articulated a thing I knew but didn't know I knew: I keep having intense emotional relationships with people several thousand miles away (C., D.) because then I don't have to worry about being "wrong" wrt sex.

*facepalm*

And then I'm sad because people I love are far away, because I love things like hugs and cuddling under a blanket and bringing people a cup of tea before they've noticed theirs has gone cold. And also I resent that being alone is so logistically hard.