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Apr. 17th, 2009 12:59 pmThat was a good session.
I managed to talk about something I don't even think about, usually, and I think there's a lot there to explore, and I don't feel raw or vulnerable, just full of possibility. Good session.
It turns out that what I thought I wanted when I was a child, I don't (I did then, wanted it desperately, but my needs have changed); my instincts for what will make me happy as the person I am now are — my therapist thinks — right on; I got really unlucky with some of the relationships I found over the last couple of years, because they are replaying painful patterns from my past which are not entirely under my control; it would be really fucking healthy for me to date; and I really am doing work, honest work, in therapy YAY.
I managed to talk about something I don't even think about, usually, and I think there's a lot there to explore, and I don't feel raw or vulnerable, just full of possibility. Good session.
It turns out that what I thought I wanted when I was a child, I don't (I did then, wanted it desperately, but my needs have changed); my instincts for what will make me happy as the person I am now are — my therapist thinks — right on; I got really unlucky with some of the relationships I found over the last couple of years, because they are replaying painful patterns from my past which are not entirely under my control; it would be really fucking healthy for me to date; and I really am doing work, honest work, in therapy YAY.
