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Oct. 15th, 2009 12:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elizabeth1. Wow, loss of sunlight really does make me go insane and unhappy. The never-ending period of October 2009 (seriously, a week and a half is not normal, even for me) is also not helping.
2. So I am willingly going to spend the weekend with my mother. I don't know if this means that my baseline has shifted, that I have escaped far enough from North Hell that I can see the good things about it, or that I am desperate enough for hugs to think this is a good idea. But I need to do something.
3. I figured out why calling my mom for comfort is almost never a good idea. It's not that she's bad at unconditional love — she isn't — it's that her way of showing is Martian. Literally — in the old-fashioned men are from Mars, women are from Venus thing, Martians express love and caring by trying to help, making suggestions, and I do not experience that as caring, I experience it as annoying and frustrating.
2. So I am willingly going to spend the weekend with my mother. I don't know if this means that my baseline has shifted, that I have escaped far enough from North Hell that I can see the good things about it, or that I am desperate enough for hugs to think this is a good idea. But I need to do something.
3. I figured out why calling my mom for comfort is almost never a good idea. It's not that she's bad at unconditional love — she isn't — it's that her way of showing is Martian. Literally — in the old-fashioned men are from Mars, women are from Venus thing, Martians express love and caring by trying to help, making suggestions, and I do not experience that as caring, I experience it as annoying and frustrating.
