blockquote of doom

( Cesperanza's With Six You Get Eggroll )

We all want what we didn't have as children. I spent most of my childhood traveling, or so it felt at the time; I lived in the same house, went to the same school, but we were always packing or unpacking, and every time we left the the town where nothing changed and I was suffocated from normal, it was a different apartment I was sent to, a temporary bed, somewhere I didn't even have a damn drawer for my own. And now, I'm desperate for my own home; somewhere I can feel secure and safe and steady. Maybe that's why the fantasy of the cottage in Cornwall is so powerful for me. My savings account is mentally tagged as for the trip this August, and then everything that goes in there afterwards is for home. I want a home that's mine, all the way mine, the way I want to draw breath. My site(s) are meant to be that on the internet, because LiveJournal was the first place I found that made me feel like I belonged, and then I lost it; I can create a home on the internet relatively easily. But woman does not live by servers alone, and the body is as needful as the soul.